Welcome to the Opera ✨

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Here’s to New Beginnings 🥂,

Hi! I’m Lilly M., and first–I want to say thank you for taking the time to read this welcome post as well as any future posts I publish on my blog, Lilly M. Speaks. This is the beginning of what I hope to be a very rewarding and fulfilling venture as I share my healing journey and what I’ve learned through it.

A second and deeply personal purpose for this blog is to serve as an outlet for my unique and emotionally colored perspectives. I’m a chronic overthinker–formerly a nihilistic, catastrophic thinker–so my therapist suggested this avenue for release as well after my depression returned last year. I’m someone who really lives through my work and is very affected by that environment, so a job that makes me question my entire value and virtue is sure to send me straight into an internal spiral of frustration and anger. (Crippling existential dread ftw! Yay!)

Most importantly, this is a space for me to show up on the world’s stage and be authentically me. Turns out, I’m really just a sack of flesh made of 40% feelings, 40% racing thoughts, and 10% tits (they used to be gigantic, but now they’re only moderately large) in a world that’s constantly trying to tell me my most invaluable gifts of incisive genius, insight, and big-picture thinking mean nothing unless it can be used for profit or productivity. I need this platform to feel real in society and make something of myself, because so far all my other attempts to do so have been thwarted and blocked by what feels like never ending challenge and struggle.

What can you expect?

I’ll be sharing my views and interpretations on topics that include but aren’t limited to: Astrology, healing, inner growth, relationships, spirituality, and “the culture.” I want to discuss what inner healing looks like on raw and real levels. Give public recognition to some of my darkest and grittiest moments I experienced when I went within to explore and reconnect with lost parts of my soul. I’ll also use politics and pop culture as a reference to dissect the core human behaviors underpinning society and critically discuss what human nature is in its entirety.

My writing will be evocative and cutting at times. Maybe even uplifting and inspirational. My thoughts can be very dark but always true–never myopic or shallow. They can be whimsical and excitable too. Since I’m writing from my depths, the juxtaposition between aching sadness and dream-like idealism may feel like whiplash (welcome to my inner world!), But most importantly, I want my work to make you think and really question what you believe this human experience is meant to be and how authentically you are living your own life currently.

Real talk though,

The truth is, I’m not a writer nor am I a creative. I’m an analytic and a deep thinker, so I feel way out of my bounds here beginning a blog when I went to college for business and spent the past 7 years post-graduation regularly writing the most inane and disingenuous emails known to humankind (Microsoft Outlook may as well be considered the 4th ring of my personal hell).

Like The Fool card in Tarot, numbered 0 to represent unlimited potentials, I’m the young lass jumping off the precipice into the unknown, still unsure of the exact definition and structure of this project, but trusting the unconventionality of my journey and letting my creativity unfold in its own unique timing and (messy) process.

I absolutely love talking about Astrology and inner world experiences in general, so please check my services pages to find out how you can book time with me to get guidance and emotional support as you walk along your own journey of healing as well. I offer Astrology Chart Readings as well as more intensive and guided emotional support and healing through my Rent-A-Sad-Girl™ service.

Guys, I’m honestly so f*cking scared of what I’m signing myself up for. Despite my outer confidence, inwardly I struggle with self-doubt and constantly fight to believe I can do the things I want to do. But there’s this part of me, despite all the fear, that deeply craves growth and continuous improvement. Every time I think I’ve fallen too low to get back up, I rise again like the goddamn terminator. I rise again and again from the ashes like a golden indomitable phoenix, bulldozing my way through the thick darkness. I don’t hate it there, but I also know I can’t stay there.

So. Are you ready to dive deep into my inner world with me?

Until next time ,🪐

Lilly M. ✨